This is a little something I wrote on my accident's first anniversary just to let you know a few of the thoughts that were going through my head. I e-mailed this to everyone who had initially helped me through this ordeal, as well as some people who gave my life importance. It's not much, but you can read it if you want.
A Year in Reflection
Well, the time has finally come. I must face that lovely holiday that marked the turning point of my life. I thought it would be easy, but I guess it will be a little harder than I had anticipated. So many thoughts are running around in my head, but I'll try to pin some of them down for you :)
More than anything, I'm reliving all the events in my head. Right now I'm at the third of July's "Red Hot and Boom" celebration.... such a fun and carefree time for me. I had no idea of the events that lay in store. It's frightening to think of how fast things happen. Even though I've already suffered one tragedy, the same chances are there for another one. This has given me a new perspective on life. Life is too short to dwell on its everyday nuisances. A flat tire could give me a chance to enjoy some fresh air. I can't tell you how thankful I am for every breath (especially after two months on the ventilator). But by far, my relationships with others are most important to me. I've been so blessed to have such wonderful people (friends, family, teachers, nurses, therapists, and even complete strangers) in my life. I could not have made it through this without them. Even now, all those I know and meet give my life meaning. If I can reach a life, help someone, or just be a friend, my purpose has been served. So, if you're reading this email... thank you. You are all very special to me.
As for the events of July 4th, I sometimes still find myself in disbelief. Such a simple act with such drastic consequences. Recalling the moment I heard my neck crack is frightful. Even more so are the moments I thought I was going to die facedown in the water. But I'm definitely glad someone pulled me out. Even though this last year hasn't exactly been a walk in the park, I'm thankful for everyone who has helped me along the way. Thank you for keeping me the same ol' happy Jenni4 :) I wish everyone a very happy and SAFE Fourth of July.
Take care,
-- Jenni4